Monday, May 28, 2007

Hear Me Out

Hear Me Out - Frou Frou

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all I am is holding breath
Just pick up I know you're there
Can't you hear? I'm not myself

Oh go ahead and lie to me
You could say anything, small talk will be just fine
Your voice is everything, we owe it to love
And it all depends on you

Chorus:

So listen up, this sun hasn't set
(I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling)
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
(It's love on the line, can you handle it?)

So how do I do normal?
The smile I fake, the permanent wave of
Cue cards and fix it kits
Can't you tell? I'm not myself

I'm a slow motion accident
Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints
I don't wanna feel anything, but I do
And it all comes back to you

Chorus:

So listen up, this sun hasn't set
(I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling)
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
(It's love on the line, can you handle it?)

So listen up
Look at me straight
Just hear me out
Don't make me wait
I'm not myself
I can't take this
Love's on the line
Is that your final answer

I join the queue on your answerphone
And all I am is holding breath
Just pick up i know you're there......

Chorus:

So listen up, this sun hasn't set
(I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling)
Just hear me out, I'm not over you yet
(It's love on the line, can you handle it?)


Not the official video. Video put together by a fan. Listen!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Bay to Breakers

Every year, San Francisco hosts the famous 12k foot race called the Bay to Breakers. It is a fabulous testament to the city of San Francisco. I don't feel like writing out the entire history so here's a paste directly from the run's official site.

Bay to Breakers History

At 5:13am on April 18, 1906, a devastating earthquake – that would become one of history’s most notorious natural disasters - rocked San Francisco. The subsequent fire and destruction were unimaginable, and many feared the City would be gone forever. But San Franciscans, displaying their typical fortitude and innovation, immediately began rebuilding the city and producing events to lift their morale. One of those events, the Cross City Race – known better today as ING Bay to
Breakers – was first run in 1912 as a precursor to the world-class athletic events planned for the 1915 Panama Pacific International Exposition. There were less than 200 participants that first year and Robert Jackson Vlught was the first person to ever cross the finish line, with a finishing time of 44:10.

Since then, Bay to Breakers has prevailed as a testament to San
Francisco’s uniqueness and audacity. Each year, the race is a glorious
celebration of the human spirit – a giant wave of athleticism, fun, frivolity, and determination flowing across the City from the bay to the ocean. It is one of the largest footraces in the world with 65,000 + participants and 100,000 + spectators annually. As the race grew in size it even set a Guinness Book record, with 110,000 participants, in 1986. The course is challenging and beautiful, and consistently attracts top athletes in the sport. But it isn't just a race for the serious runner.

In the true spirit of San Francisco the race is a celebration for everyone. Thousands of costumed participants join with families, weekend runners and people just out for a stroll. As they make
their way through the heart of San Francisco they are cheered by thousands of spectators and live music along the course. They also have to dodge the "spawning salmon" who each year make their way from the Finish line, through the masses, to the Start.


Throughout its long history Bay to Breakers has been a showplace for the City's irrepressible color and its affection for eclectic traditions. Although runners come from across the country and all points of the globe, the race is still quintessential San Francisco and a true reflection of life between the breakers and the Bay.

Historical highlights:

1928: The Cross City Race moves to the last Sunday in January (and
has been held on a Sunday ever since).
1940: The first female runner, Bobbie Burke, participates disguised as a man.
1940: The first costumed runner (other than
Bobbie Burke) takes to the course as Captain Kidd, and finishes last.
1949: The first year the race was held in May.
1963: The smallest Cross City on record, with only 25 registered runners.
1964: In it's 53rd year the race is dubbed Bay to Breakers.
1971: With a finishing time of 50:45, Frances Conley becomes the first official winner in the Women's Division.
1974: At the age of 10 Maryetta Boitano became the youngest winner in the history of the race. She also set the fastest women's finishing time at 43:22. She went on to win the Women's Division in 1975 and 1976.
1986: With 78,769 registered runners and 110,000 total participants, the Guinness Book of World Records awards Bay to Breakers the title of World's Largest Footrace.
1990: The Reebok Aggies set the men's centipede record with a time of 37:39.
1990: The Reebok Aggies set the women's centipede record with a time of 47:36.
1993: From 1993 to 1996, Bay to Breakers was the first official 12K National Championship recognized by the USA Track & Field Association.
1993: Ismael Kirui of Kenya set the standing men's record with a finishing time of 33:42.
1994: American runners were able to use their times to meet the standard required for entry into the Olympic trials.
1998: In 13th place, Jane Omoro secured the highest finishing position by a woman.
2005: With a finishing time of 38:22, Asmae Leghzaoui (Morocco) set a new women's world record and bested our course record,
set by Delillah Asiago (Kenya) in 1995, by one second.

This year was the first time I'd ever seen the race up close. Normally, I'm heading to work, sometimes having to cross the massive flow and crush of observers and runners at the designated crossing streets. This year, however, Marty had decided to run the race, his second since starting to run, months and months ago. I was not feeling well and had called in sick to work but I still had to give him a ride down to the Start line. And then ride up to the Finish line to pick him up so I could take him back home for a shower and so he could grab the truck to go down to his work. Race and work. What a day!

By the time we got down to the Start line, I was starting to feel the energy rising, and there was a Burning Man quality to it that started me grinning. Soon I was bouncing along side Marty, who happened to be dressed in a Guernsey cow suit in which he was going to run the race, drinking in the sights and the Energy of it all.

I love this city. I'm not biased or anything (*cough*) but this is the best city in the United States. That thousands upon thousands of people can swarm the city to do a foot race dressed in all sorts of hysterical outfits and hardly anyone blinks is so precious to me.

There were a couple of people holding large signs near the Start line saying "Jesus saves from hell" and "Homosexuals are sinners" or some such stupid-ass crap. I laughed at first until Marty stated that he thought they were being serious. Then I scowled. But the crush of runners, dressed in everything from KISS outfits to large cars (and Guernsey cows), just swirled around these few, pretty much ignoring them. No fights broke out. I may have laughed a little derisively as I passed by. Under my breath... or maybe a little bit out loud.

That shit seriously pisses me off. And at the same time, there's a part of me that says, "Everyone is free to say what they feel." Just like thousands of people can dress up (or not, since there are naked runners) and do this amazing thing in the middle of one of the best known cities of America. Which is, I guess, why San Francisco gets a sort of "Black Sheep" reputation. "Oh you're a Californian!?" people exclaim, probably conjuring thoughts of beach bunnies and sun and warmth. (This is Southern California, people). Then you say, "Yeah, San Francisco." For the most part, people are pretty excited about the city. "Oh! San Francisco! How cool!" although I note the topic changes pretty quickly. Evil San Franciscanites! How dare they vote No, hands down, on The Terminator at election time! How dare they want to protect medical marijuana and medical "Pot Clubs"! How dare they try to impose a 1% tax on each dollar made over a million to go to mental health programs! How dare they vote for anything socialist, green, democratic! Usually San Francisco is the one county in California to vote NO on all the anti-socialist, etc propositions/elections and uniformly YES on the pro props. So many cool and crazy things begin their lives here and spread out across the country, as well as continue to be fed within the City. The Hippy movement, Burning Man, big chunk of the Gay rights movement.

Plus a commitment to Green. And I don't mean the Green Party but that's a big deal here. I mean environmentally. Since the United States did not ratify the Kyoto Accords (is this a surprise? Hey, blame Australia too), it cannot be held to the boundaries set by the Protocol. Meaning, as usual, the US can do whatever the hell it wants with its highest production of greenhouse crap (in the world). So California itself became one of the first states to sign onto the Kyoto Protocol and San Francisco signed on as a city committed to the philosophy within.

Once dropping Marty off and walking with him up to the Start line, winding through the "shunt" that led into the main starting street, the street literally covered with tortillas (I don't know why), the occasional tortilla sailing through the air above the crowd like Frisbees, taking photos along the way, I kissed my cow good luck and he took off, starting his run across the City in the midst of thousands. You can read about his experience on his blog.

I took a few more photos and then headed out to my scooter to begin my trek across the City to the Finish line at the ocean. And I say trek because it turned out to be somewhat of a journey. Since the race runs a main "track", following some major city streets from East to West, bayside to oceanside, it effectively cuts the city in half, upper and lower. There are designated intersections where crossing is possible, police stopping participants to allow bits of traffic through but for the most part, those not interested in the race can get a little frustrated with the flow of traffic. Since I had parked south of the race, one street below Market and the Embarcadero, I pretty much had to stay on that side of the city. Of course, I did not have the map Marty had given me, having left it at home, so I asked one of the race staff where the finish line was. She showed me on her map, saying she wasn't sure really where it was or how to get there. Fortunately for me, having lived here for almost 10 years, I knew pretty much where it was and how to get there. But, on the OTHER side of the race. So, the normal route I would have taken was out. I sat on my scooter for a while, imaging the City in my mind, testing out different streets. Having something solidified, I took off. Heh.

I'm coming around a curve and suddenly am about to get on the freeway, going towards the East Bay. Not good. Especially since it's not where I want to go, and ESPECIALLY not on a little 150cc scooter! I pulled over and waited for cars to continue up the ramp and made my way down the ramp on the shoulder and off I went in a different direction. After some roundabouts, I finally hit a street headed towards the ocean, parallel to the race, although I couldn't see it.

But somewhere, I could almost Feel a special Guernsey cow out there, pacing along with me. The streets were pretty much deserted and a bit dirty (which is not at all usual for SF, it's usually a fairly clean city), bits of debris and papers. There was an almost abandoned quality to the city where I was. So my imagination, very rich and vivid, starts ticking away, and also being a serious Sci-Fi buff, I start feeling like I'm a lone survivor from some zombie catastrophe, trying to make way to the ocean where other survivors are hopefully gathering. Hehe.

After a few more turnabouts, I finally managed to make my way to the Finish line, trusty camera in hand. I had fun taking photos of the folks crossing the Finish, a band of mariachis, a fat, naked man in tennis shoes, a gaggle of Swedish milkmaids, a legion of Roman warriors, a bunch of grapes, a man who's been running the race for 36 years. I saw an ambulance make its slow way through crowd and learned later that someone had died. I didn't see my cow. But finally received a phone call from him (ahh, cell phones make these things so much easier!) and he had crossed the finish line on the opposite side from where I was.

Sweaty cow!!

He had run the entire race in the suit, although he had wondered if he might have to take it off due to overheating but apparently did fine.

He also reported a fairly cowless race, having only seen very few fellow bovines, one travelling with his milkmaid.

May the Gods look down upon San Francisco and Bless its amazing whackiness. May San Francisco continue to be the Bastion of the Strange, of the Weird, of the Socially Courageous! May San Francisco continue to offer to its citizens and the world, the opportunity to flout the repressive, the oppressive structures of the Societal Norm!

Keep running, San Francisco!!

And fly your Freak Flag high!

Saturday, May 5, 2007

Scuba Diving

I love scuba diving. I don't get to do it very often but I really love it.

There's something intensely alive yet quiet below the water. Lots of life, lots of noise you hear travelling through the water, the ticks of critters, popping of bubbles. Lots of things to see, coral and sea life. And sand, waves of it, moved into those characteristic ripples by the motion of the sea.

You know, humans can be a pretty ugly race, capable of great destruction of beings and Earth. But, humans are amazingly creative and capable of fantastic things, love and compassion. And very cool inventions sprung from wild imaginations.

You want to fly like a bird, let's build it. Airplanes are born. You want to swim like a fish, with the fish? Let's find a way. SCUBA is born.

SCUBA = Self-Contained Underwater Breathing Apparatus. Naturally.

But these freedoms, to breathe underwater, do not come without a price. You can only stay down so long because you can only put so much air, even compressed, in a tank. You can only go so far down due to rising to toxic levels of nitrous in the blood, leading to the "Bends". The equipment itself is intense. Tight wetsuits with a bulky BCD (flotation device), your air tank with all its various hoses and such dangling off. Floppy flipper duck feet. And your weight belt. You think you sink if you jump in the water? Humans are far more buoyant then you might realize. And in order to get to where you want to go, meaning to sink down below and enjoy all the sights, you have to add extra pounds. For me, generally about 13 in warm water, twice that for cold water, which is way more dense at lower levels, higher pressure. Out of water, the entire get up is HEAVY. And really, I mean it. Fucking HEAVY. Ungainly, duck waddling heavy. Once you get into the water, things are usually fine. You let the air out of your BCD and sink down slowly, pressurizing your ears as you drop. Never stop breathing. Stop to make sure your inner air cavities equalize (inner ears, sinus, etc).

But once down, properly adjusted to the pressure, properly adjusted with your buoyancy (meaning you are neither rising nor sinking, but neutral, floating), enjoy yourself. There's so much to experience, even just the sensation of being able to breathe underwater.

So Marty's long old time friend made contact again after years and it was discovered that he was a Master Diver. So Marty and I, having been certified for Basic Open Water diving (down to 60 feet) on our "Honeymoon", set up a time to go with him diving at Point Lobos, near Monterrey. Cold water diving. Not cold as in needing a dry suit (which you need a special certification to use) but this is the Pacific. Cold. But with thicker wetsuits, it usually isn't a problem. So we set up for May 5th.

And off we go. We rent equipment, BCDs and air tanks, Randy having brought suits with him. You can wear thin nylon "skinsuits" underneath your wetsuit, it helps keep you a little warmer but also helps you get the damn things on too. Slippy slidy.

Me in the skinsuit before I put on my wetsuit.

Colder water wetsuits are designed thicker, with layers, and undersuit, sort of a one-piece leggings and tank top, like Marty is wearing. Then a top "jacket" with long sleeves and a hood, that stretches over the hips. Warm. You want your organs especially to be warm. Of course, over all this, goes goggles, gloves, boots, flippers, the BCD, tank, and weight belt. HEAVY. So we gear up.

Randy had brought his wife's old suit, thinking I would fit into it since she had worn it previously. Apparently his wife and I could both fit into it, when we were both twenty pounds lighter. But wetsuits, being all stretchy and stuff, can be made to fit. But it was tight. Very tight. But I gamely suited up, geared up and flopped into the water.

I had had reservations about the cold water. I hate being cold. But I was amazed, as I always am, for some reason, that my wetsuit was doing its job. The cold water slowly seeped in through the tight layers but warmed up pretty fast. So the cold water ended up not being bad at all. I love wetsuits!

But by the time I got into the water, I was already struggling. The suit was restricting my breathing a little and I wasn't feeling so confident. Apparently the cold water makes things constrict and the suit got tighter. I was quite reminded of the scene in Pirates of the Caribbean: The Black Pearl where Elizabeth is standing up on the wall and the Commander is starting to propose to her and she's struggling with the new experience of wearing a corset, fanning herself, gulping and gasping for air until she passes out and falls over the wall into the water.

If this is what wearing corsets was like, they are Evil. And whoever designed them should have been shot.

Plus, I didn't have enough weight in my belt so I couldn't descend. I got my head underwater enough to be breathing off my regulator and found that, which is normal, that I wasn't getting as much air. Air in the tank is compressed and doesn't act like regular air you can just casually breathe in, you have to work a tiny bit for it. And I wasn't getting enough because my chest and belly were so constricted. I was starting to really struggle for air. So, next to the very important rule of Never Stop Breathing, the more important is a Good Diver Is A Safe Diver. I had to make the decision not to dive. I could have pushed it and could have passed out. Which, underwater, is really not a good thing to do.

I was bummed. But Marty said maybe we could switch suits after he came back from his dive and so I waited on the shore. Marty had some issues which you can read about on his blog. By the time he got back, I was realizing I was wiped. My ribs hurt and I was exhausted with all the struggling.

So I did not get to dive. But rather be alive and not dive. Warm water diving and better gear for me please!